October 28, 2013
Do You Miss Being THERE?
"Do you miss the other place?" It's the question I hear more than any. Paraguayans ask me if I miss the U.S. and in the states, I'm asked if I miss Paraguay. How do I answer that? Sure, I miss certain people, and sure, I crave certain foods from both places, but really, I think the answer I'd give and the answer people want to hear aren't the same. So I end up humming and hawing and mumbling until I can change the subject.
The truth is, I am probably two different people inside. If you could really see what goes on in my head and heart and maybe even my body, I'm pretty sure it's compartmentalized into two very separate worlds.
I land in the U.S. and drive familiar interstate highways, passing green signs to familiar towns and advertisements for fast food, and I feel like I was just on that same road yesterday. Paraguay seems like some distant dream that I'm recounting, but not like a living breathing place with actual dirt and trees and animals.
Is that normal? Who knows. But it keeps me sane, so I guess it's okay. ;)
Here's another perspective along these same lines, from a fellow ex-pat in India. Interesting thoughts.